This is my 174th post. I am aiming for 200 posts before the end of the calendar year. Given my past record, this will be a task. If I get a job I might have a tougher time of it but I will give it a go.
I found myself doing nothing today. I ran and got my mile in today. I got in some core exercises too. I then found myself reading a triathlon magazine and I realize I have a lot more to do and a long way to go. I also realize I am not doing nearly enough to make myself stronger for the upcoming marathon or the ultra, much less the run for an Ironman in a couple years. A whole lot of my lack of training is mental. I know this. I need to get past my past behaviors. I need to move my mind into the present. I notice I am becoming more mindful of my thoughts and as a result, I am becoming increasingly mindful of my behaviors and my physcal state at any given point in the day.
There is nothing other than now.
There is nothing other than now.
Infinite patience yields immediate results.
I am thankful for my friends. I am thankful for The Goofy Kindhearted One, the Righteous One who has bad taste in football teams, The Ubernerd who is also an athlete, The Hobbit, The Missing One, The Nerdy Guitar Hero, and The Nerdy Goofy One. Notice a trend? Yes they are all rather goofy (oh, and nerdy). Is this because I am like this or because I seek the goofiness I need to complete what I am missing. Probably a little of both. These people have been my friends since third grade (Ubernerd since high school). I am grateful for every moment I have known them and every moment I will have with them.
I am thankful for my family. I love my wife and I am grateful for sharing my life with her. I love my son. He is a bright, beautiful, curious ray of sunshine on any day. I am thankful for my daughter. She is love in a little package. She is full of kisses and hugs. She is full of curiousity and wit. I enjoy her laughter and thrill at her discoveries about life.
I am thankful for my home. I love knowing that I can get up in the morning to a lovely house and share my time with those I love. I look forward to getting the yard straightened out and the garage cleaned up (so I can clutter them all over again during the holidays).
I am thankful for my health. I love that I can run and swim and exercise. I love that I can tolerate pain and weather. I love the feeling of completing a workout and sweating (intentionally) only to cool off in a pool so cold I have to chase off polar bears.
I am thankful for the few people who still read my posts. I do write some of this for you. Most of it is for my own amusement and my ego says that if I find something clever, someone else might as well. I guess I should look into finding some validation to this theory so I can either inflate my ego or pop it like a balloon (not like this has not been done a hundred times in the last few years, but it is good to know, right?).
I am thankful that I can still look for a job. I appreciate the time I have had at home to be there when I my little ones get off school, but that will need to end soon. I like postulating about the available jobs out there as well as the unavailable jobs out there. I would not mind working at a sports store ( I have applied to a few). I might have some issue with selling things I do not endorse, but I would get over it. Sales, unlike speech therapy, does not have much of a code of ethics. I can still steer people in the direction of something I feel is appropriate. I still want to work online or energy healing and I am still searching for a way to do this, but I will probably have to supplement my wife’s income during the process. I am grateful that I am in a position to do this. (I hear Elephant Journal is taking interns… interesting.)
I am thankful that I can now go sleep (do not know if it will be for 7 hours or 1 hour) in my bed and get up in the morning to beauty. Thank you for reading. I will see you tomorrow.
I have been missing the iPad. I wrote some blog/journal entries over the last couple of weeks. I just either did not put them on the computer or in writing at all. I still write blog entries in my head but they tend to not get published because my brain seems to have no urgency to rewrite them once they have been finished. I used to be able to just write my blog on the iPad when I was out anywhere so, yeah, I miss that. the last month has been difficult both in the cleaning and the workout arenas. I was mulling this over a couple weeks ago while my kids were playing at the mall and I decided on a new course of action. I set upon a plan to lose 20 pounds in 60 days. This begins today, November 13, 2013 and ends January 12, 2014.
I outlined a method similar to the one I laid out last year in Time for Weight Loss. Since I am not working I had to add items for keeping busy so I would not just sit around the house on the computer and snacking. Yard work, cleaning the garage, house work and just keeping moving are a big part of the things I need to focus on. I have also got more specific exercises for building core. I can designate specific time each day to core exercises and weights.
I have been working on the mental blocks to working out and pushing myself farther. Still working on it but I have gotten past those blocks many times in the last few months by just forcing the run/workouts. I need to do it more consistently.
This weekend I will be volunteering at the Ironman AZ in the hopes of getting into the race for next year. It should be a great time.
March is the Old Pueblo Ultra (50 miles) near Tucson. I can’t wait for that!
Sleep has been sporadic lately. My daughter has been getting up anywhere between 12:30 and 4:30 each night. This explains part of my lack of posts as well as my mental disorganization and my overall sluggishness. Hopefully this will level off. My kids slept until after 5 today so I am feeling a little more awake and focused. I have found it a bit easier to meditate when I am getting sleep too. That has helped my meditation be more productive in the lsat couple days too. I need to cut this short so I can actually get to bed at a decent time tonight.
Thank you for reading. I am grateful to you all.
The first thing…
On the way to take the kids to school today The Dictator decided to announce that he is going to marry mommy and Her Majesty is going to marry me. Her Majesty disagreed. She said she is going to marry The Dictator. After my first attempt to reply, I could not get into the conversation because it became a heated argument. The Dictator decided he had enough and proceeded to hit Her Majesty with the ruler he was holding. I was not exactly pleased with this so I pulled over to have him think about this so we could process the interaction. (I would go more into this topic but the interaction turned away from
discussing a Class C felony an amusing one to the commission of a misdemeanor Her majesty screaming about her boo boo. I know, where are my priorities?)
The second thing…
I start to open the sliding door on my minivan and the handle comes off in my hand. *sigh* We did the whole time out/think time then process the whole thing. I proceeded to drop them both off and, instead of going about my day with a workout and then cleaning house, I went to the dealer to see what they can do.
The third thing…
I drive up and they are hellabusy. The salesman tells me it will take an hour just to get to the car to tell me what they can do. I wander around the dealer for an hour. It was nice. I had a couple conversations with salesmen before I settled down in a quiet place where I could watch Sportscenter. Shortly after I sat down, the service salesman comes and tells me it will cost $250 to fix the door. As we are talking I notice a bunch of other numbers on the estimate form. He said they did a standard 21 point inspection which is fine but often means $$$.
The fourth thing…
I need a tune up, no biggie, it will wait a bit. I need spark plugs but not urgently. The rotor arms are tearing. The number next to this item is what you would expect, unpleasant. Normally, this would be just something unpleasant, but not working makes this cost similar to buying a new house or needing a kidney transplant. I had to pull the trigger on this even though it felt like pulling a trigger.
I got a rental. A Yukon. Nice little tank. I could storm Kabul with this thing and still pick up a soccer team to go for pizza in the afternoon. It even came with the standard turret and 5 120mm rounds with an option for the 150mm gun on top. I really did not feel I needed that upgrade (although some of these suburban housewives seem to be driving vehicles straight out of Call of Duty) so I took the standard.
Now I am home. No time to go for my run so I will do some core and weights. Tonight we have parent-teacher conferences so I will do some cleaning because grandma and grandpa are coming to watch the kiddos. I need to go figure out what will be for dinner too.
I will publish my workout schedule for this week shortly. It is very different this week because my son has half-days Wednesday and Thursday and Friday off. I think I can get back to normal <del>whatever the hell that is</del>next week.
1 month to volunteer at IronMan AZ.
3 months to PF Chang’s.
5 months to Old Pueblo.
Greeting to all my followers! I realized I passed my one year mark but I am incredibly grateful that I am still around. I am grateful for those of you who remain as well!
1. I ran my long run yesterday at a 9:30 pace. I will be doing crosstraining and foamroll today and I will work in a run this weekend.
2. My son has finally started caring about his fellow classmates at school and his behavior is improving. I am far less concerned that he is getting the rewards his teacher provides than I am about his concern for his classroom experience. Next week is parent-teacher conferences.
3. I am finally getting organized around the house and making a list of blog topics as well. Hopefully, I can finally get around to writing those entries.
4. My daughter loves her new school. She is finally being challenged and there are no reports of acting out we had at her previous school. In years past, she would get bored with her teachers or her curriculum and she would bite. None of that this year. She is happy with school. She gets to sing, dance, make art almost every day.
5. Two months unemployed and I realize more and more how much I do not miss my job. Yes, I miss the money and I am currently looking for something to do while the kids are in school, but I am realizing that I could not ethically continue to do the things they were expecting me to do. That job was 85-90% paperwork, 5% school-related duties (meetings that addressed nothing I needed to know, lunch duty, going into the special education classroom to provide services I was not qualified to provide to students I did not have on my caseload, etc.), 8% prep time, and perhaps some time to get to providing therapy for the students. That leftover time was to be therapy but at what cost? Sacrificing therapy quality for the needs of some state protocol or some protocol set forth by the district which ends up being busy work at best is unethical and mind-numbing. I have probably alluded to how I feel and think about that job in the past, but my wife still works there and things are even worse this year than last.
I am looking forward now. I am getting fit in the process. I am pushing myself and my hope is to get good enough to find a sponsor or two. I am entertaining thoughts about how to make money for now since this whole getting a job thing is not working too well. I have filled out applications online and nothing has come to fruition, not even a call for interview. I am waiting for Road Runner Sports to get back to me. I talked with the newly appointed store supervisor and explained that all I want is part-time work. She sent an email to their human resources department and we are waiting now.
Fall is here (even in the
pits of Hell desert and runs are easier and heat runs are basically over. Although 86 degrees is still hot for doing long runs, I can manage.
No catchy phrases today, just Tuesday.
breakfast – none or juice
post-workout – juice
lunch – juice or vegan quesadillas with salsa
dinner – usually nothing big. tasting dinner for the family and perhaps a little pasta.
Monday – 60 min run @10 min/mile
Tuesday – Cross-training – 300m swim
– 30 minute core workout
Wednesday – 8 x 400m @ 1:50
4 x 800 @ 3:50
Thursday – 60 min run @ 10 min/mile
Friday – 26 mile (marathon distance)
Saturday – weights and yoga stretches
Sunday – stretches and rest
Last week was difficult because I worked on Friday and did not get my long run in. My run times have actually been less than my planned times. I have been averaging 1:45 on my 400s and 3:30 on my 800s. I have been wearing calf sleeves and they are awesome for recovery time! I have not been doing much blogging but I have a lot to say. I think I will get a few done this week.
Thank you for reading. I appreciate you and your readership.
1. Calves have been hurting for days from doing squats with weights. Running has been really difficult because I thought I might have hurt myself that first day.
2. Got my professional license registration in today (it expires tomorrow). I am not actually using it but I figured it would be easier to keep it for awhile longer just in case.
3. Ran a bit on the treadmill this week and I am learning to extend my duration. I think it would be easier in a club than at home.
4. Writing (or even checking) for the blog is difficult without the iPad. I think I said this before, but it is worth reiteration. I might be able to get an iPad by the time they have the version 10 (the implant version).
5. Still looking for a job. Internet searches are rather silly. I fill out the application online. I wait and get nothing in response. I have no one to call because the application goes to the company not the store. I am not applying for CEO jobs. I am applying for grunt work. I am not demanding a salary or benefits. I am asking for an entry level job in a retail shop. Seriously, I have no way of getting feedback from these places to know if they even got my information. Some of these places are now even using CareerBuilder and other types of recruiting sites to organize and manage the applications. I just want to work a bit while my son is in school and I have no one to play with.
Thank you for reading and posting. Namaste
1. I will get more awards finished this weekend.
2. I do not really feel like blogging right now.
3. I am incredibly happy there have been a lot of posts to read today!
4. I have a paper to edit so it may take awhile (no run tonight but weights instead).
5. I have to go into my garage (probably tomorrow) and sort through it so I can fit at least one car in from the summer swelter.
Why am I blogging this and why should you care? I blog it because announcing intention to do something helps one to do it. (OMG, what will they think if I don’t do it? Not that I care, but the human mind still works that way). You should care because you care enough to read this. How much care y have depends on you. More another time. Love you all.