Month: December 2013
On the way to the mall my children asked me a question. We had a conversation about the answer. I started writing a post in my head and got fairly far with the thoughts. I sat down at the play area and all thoughts about that post have evaporated like my dreams of being a running back in the NFL. Kids are like that. They steal thoughts as much as they stimulate them. They can drain all you have just as efficiently as they help define who you are. They sap as much of your strength as they give. I would have been fine had I been paying attention. The problem is that they are even better at turning my attention and memory into an Etch-A-Sketch.
Hopefully I can retrieve this information when we get back in the car later.
One year ago a new year began. Like all beginnings, this one held much promise. Possibilities were endless. Not really true because we tend to pass off these magical qualities on the future. What we tend to forget is that we will still have the same pressures and obligations as we do on the day we are fantasizing about what we will do in that “undiscovered country.” I am not in the same place I was a year ago. I have less resources than I did then and my time is just as limited as last year ago. I have certain things I need to do at specific times during the day just as I did when I worked and my personal time must revolve around the schedules of others. I have a bit more time for training but that time must be tempered with time spent cleaning and house maintenance. I have more time to schedule dinners yet I find myself often making the same meals I did a year ago. I find that my energy levels fluctuate in the same ways they did when I was working and that I am still tired when the kids come home from school. Last year this was the “undiscovered country,” now that I have discovered it, I realize that I was living here all along. I just found a few features I was not aware of back then.
Tuesdays in 2013
I was productive in 2013 on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I do not know if this correlates to the Tuesday/Thursday classes I had back in college, but anything is possible. A whole lot of running and cleaning was accomplished on Tuesdays this year. This was the day I ran a lot of intervals and washed a lot of clothes. This was the day I volunteered at The Dictator’s school. I helped his class in the computer lab. I think I will be doing this a bit more this year until I get a job and perhaps will do it even after I get a job if I am not working.
Today feels like a very scattered day so I will have to end here. We are heading off to the mall.
Looking back at last year, I posted about Resolutions. I did not really make resolutions for this year. I think this was a good call because making them would probably have been a huge fail. I wrote about making promises. When you make a promise and keep it, it gets easier. Your willpower increases with each success and decreases with each failure. I have not done an official tally but, I think I am slightly above 50% for successfully keeping those goals for this year. Had I made resolutions for 2013, I would have made them too grandiose and numerous. I find that one or two goals with little goals along the way is best. I am finally getting to the point where I can schedule my day/week/month better and perhaps get more accomplished. Perhaps I will make more goals for 2104. (perhaps I will actually make goals for this year since I am putting them in writing)
Next year will be about finding my center. 2013 was about moving myself off center and getting rid of those things that were keeping me from my center. (Wait, what is a center? I will write about that in another post.)
I have maintained my weight for most of the year and I am now down weight so I can run better next year. I ran more last year and actually got into somewhat of a schedule. Although I began the 4 months to a 4 hour Marathon schedule, I changed my goal to the ultramarathon so I discontinued that schedule and now I am focusing on longer distance run training. I have cleaned and uncluttered my house more in the last 3 months than I have in the last 10 years. I have not read but I listened to quite a few books this year and I think I have learned quite a lot.
More later. Not just because I want more posts but because I need to go do stuff.
No, I do not mean 2013 Mondays (I counted, roughly, and it has been more than that at my age). I mean Mondays in the year 2013. Mondays have been a lot like Fridays but I have run a lot more on Mondays. This day has been my day after a two day rest so I would be restless and want to run. The hard part in the last couple months is that, after two days with the family at home, I needed to get things done around the house that I could not do with the family around. With the holidays, I had to do a lot of cleaning and reorganizing the piles of stuff so the house would look presentable for family guests. We have not had many guests but, next month is my daughters’ birthday and we will have people over for that. Score! I look, relatively, organized. It seems that Mondays at home have mirrored Mondays when I was working. Not uber productive but far more than Fridays. We will have to explore this with other days of the week.
I should probably look back at
all a few of my posts from this year to see how far I have come (or at least how bumpy the path was), but that would mean more work and I would rather just muscle through and hope I don’t repeat much of it. Part of my original purpose in starting this blog was to impart some of who and what I am to the world. I hope I have done this in some small way. Another reason was as a release valve for my thoughts and emotions. The idea behind this is to give them a medium to reorganize and organize in such a way that they make sense. This also allows me to evolve my thoughts. They say that we have tens of thousands of thoughts each day but that there are only about 600 unique thoughts. I figure that continuing to combine and reconfigure these thoughts might help increase that number or at least change the ones I have. Change can be a good thing and I think that is what I need right now.
“I said yep, what a concept, I could use a little fuel myself and we could all use a little change.” Smashmouth
This is post 180. I wrote that I wanted to write 200 by year’s end. I have quite a few unpublished and many unfinished posts. Let’s see if I can do this by midnight Wednesday. This might take a central line of caffeine. Good thing Starbucks and Redbull now have a home central line kit for just this purpose. The last few I write might be a bit unintelligible but they will be humorous.
What were Fridays like this year? The year started with working those days with one or two off. Starting during the summer, Fridays were spent with the kids and so not much cleaning or yard work was done. I am too lazy to go back to see if I wrote about this but trying to get anything done around this house is impossible with everyone home. Fridays were probably my least productive days of the year no matter whether I was working or not. Next year will be different. This is my second long run day. This is required because I need to train my body for the rigors of the long run while tired. If I take the lazy route with this, the race will be a massive fail. I do miss looking forward to new movie releases on Fridays but I will survive.