Month: March 2013
I just wrote a whole post, published it and ‘poof’ no where to be found. And I hate re-writing something that I’ve written, but am feeling motivated to post again luckily. It’s been one of those days, basically.
So, month two of insanity is still kicking my arse. I waxs walking up stairs today and my hammies and butt were killing me – but most pain is my chest. Never have I done so many push ups. I love the sore feeling though, so embrace this. Insanity is definitely the most engaging program I’ve ever done, but also the only one I’ve stuck to. I really can’t recommend it enough, it’ll be tough, but if you commit you’ll feel wild when you do it. I love sharing things I love, so have told all my friends to get into this!
I have made working out one of my priorities, just…
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I sit to write not sure what to think or say
Was today just another like the previous yesterday?
I contemplate words of wisdom or another recipe
I debate spiritual or parenting repartee
Still not too sure about what to say or do
I think I will write a poem or two.
Thank you for following my lonely little web space
I enjoy writing to others of this little human race.
My ideas are sometimes grandiose, sometimes minuscule
But they are mine and I lord over them, I rule.
I appreciate your kind comments and witty criticisms
Even if I might get thrown into fits and paroxysms.
I love to follow and read the thoughts of others
They are the wonderfully gifts of my sisters and brothers
I am fairly sure it is about time
To end this set of pathetic attempt to rhyme.
I bid you adieu, farewell, auf Wiedersehen
(You didn’t really think I was going to rhyme auf Wiedersehen? That would be insane.)
I spent some time with a beautiful friend today. She tells me that she is beginning to move her world faster than she has been able to in the past. She says that she decided to begin eliminating things that she does not need in her life. ‘Things’ meaning distractions and obstacles that get in the way of her connection with her spirit and God. Going out with friends and drinking, processed foods (the majority of them anyway), and emotions that hold her back (I put this one in because she did not overtly state it, but this is what a large part of the conversation involved). This ‘spring cleaning’ of one’s lie is something we all need to do with regularity. It seems that we often allow things to accumulate in our lives that, although help us feel secure, nevertheless get in the way and prevent us from moving forward in life. Forward toward our goal of connecting with spirit, with God. Clearing out these ‘anchors’ frees up a lot of our energy to flow better into the present activities and allows clarity and connection with the present and hence, to God. My friend says she has noticed faster changes in her life and improvements toward her goals since she started clearing the clutter. Most of all, she found that after she cleared the clutter, the space was filled immediately with more meaningful events that were in direct alignment with her priorities in life. I am profoundly happy with her decision and her results. Connecting with life and living in the moment has proven greatly enlightening for her. I take this to heart as I have done the very same thing in several areas of my own life (which I have blogged about a few times). Bring your spirit in to now. Enact change at the speed of life. Is that not what it is all about?
I have noticed that as I stopped blogging regularly about my juicing, I started eating food. I will have been eating a bit of food each of the last three days. Has not really affected my performance but I want to get the effects of a longer term juice/smoothie fast. I will begin today. 30 days of juice and smoothies. Care to join me?
I have looked at my site and I realize things are a little messy. Sorry. I am a bit disorganized lately. I guess too many virtual irons in the fire has led me to this. I have a few online projects in the making and all of a sudden I also have a lot of real life irons ready to be pounded into steel. Birthdays, yard needing tending, progress reports for all the students I work with, homework to create, I just changed my schedule so I also have to sort that whole thing out too. that is just the real life things I need to figure out.
Then there is fitness. I am still juicing/smoothieing, I am working on changing my running form (or at least looking closer at it), I had to do research for new shoes and I needed to find more examples of running style, I am still figuring out how to balance my dietary change with how I feed my children and my wife and not get them bored or starving.
Meditation has not been as rigidly in my schedule in the last week as previously. This has affected my concentration and subsequently my higher reasoning ability. I find it harder to problem-solve and it takes longer to figure out my life. I also stop becoming rigid about things I should be rigid about.
I have said before I was starting P90X and did not. My copy did not work. I bought another copy online and I can finally begin. I will watch all the videos first so I can become acquainted with the requirements.
I have not been able to post because my concentration is so poor. I have been easily distracted and I tend to just shut down after the kids go to bed. I have been making headway on keeping my kitchen cleaner and less cluttered for a few days. I even got some paint to repaint the white wood lip on the counters (not sure who thought white was a good color for this but I got fed up (after 8 years) and changed it to a beige).
My house is cluttered so much now that I have all but given up unless we are having people over (like for my children’s birthday parties) and need to at least have space to put food on the counters.
Times like this I find that I am reminded of my house when I was growing up. Our house was not really a mess but there were just a lot of things lying in corners. Or the garage was full of so much stuff that we did not know if there were black widows lurking in the deepest recesses of the scary place. Our garage became a place we never went into. This was why my mom hid the Christmas presents in there and how I found evidence of no Santa in the garage. Our dryer died and we had a second one put in in the middle of the dining area. Looking back, I am not too sure why this was. Our yard was the worst part. the back yard looked like something Stephen King would have written about or perhaps a dead baseball team would have wanted to build a field there to play on. I understand that my mom was worn out from working 12 hour days and going to school some nights then having to deal with 2 boys on her own. I understood it then but I just adapted to these things by ignoring them. The resulting emotion, though, was shame. I was ashamed to have people over to our house. I rarely had friends over and the ones I did have, were only my best friends. I do not feel shame anymore because I do not really care what others think about my house. I clean when others are coming because I consider it a courtesy. I find that I would want it clean if I were visiting someone else. I would want to be comfortable so I attempt to do it for them. I know all the reasons for doing it every week and I know that I need to have a schedule but my laziness comes on full force when I first try to make a schedule or a list and then trying to actually follow it.
Life tends to get in the way of those schedules and lists.
It is on my list of things to correct. 🙂